last final procrastination post
So I haven’t had much to write about in the past month or so, but I had to post something now because I’m in the middle of studying-for-finals procrastination. I can’t really complain much about life, just a few worries about post graduation life.
I am now officially done with Yukai & collegiate taiko. Whether or not I take up again next school year will have to be determined later. If I’m around, I will definitely try to fit in some taiko-time. Our spring concert was a success and even though there were bumps along the way, everything worked out in the end and I came away with a lot more than I had put into it, which is always a good thing. Thanks, Yukai, for making my last quarter at UCLA so memorable. I will try not to forget all of you!
I plan to be around until at least September 14 or so, because that’s when my lease expires, but who knows after that. Who knows what I’m going to do before then either. Everything is kind of up in the air at the moment and if you know me, you’d know that this is driving me crazy. I hate it when things are up in the air. I need a solid, concrete plan in order to get me through my days. It doesn’t really matter if I end up following through, as long as I have the plan. It’s like my safety blanket. My pacifier, if I had such a thing when I was a child. It’s hard to make decisions when you know every decision is going to affect other people as well. All I know now is that I need money and I need to start working to earn that money, for rent, for food, and for school loans and such. Ah $20,000 in loans. Stupid higher education.
Then there is also the problem of what type of job I’m looking for. In my parent’s world, I would’ve already applied to med school and they’d happily cover me financially for the next ten years. Alas, I am the problem child and I now run into this predicament: I am about to graduate from an arguably prestigious university and I am looking for work as an assistant… production assistant, office assistant, personal assistant…pretty much any type of assistant position will do. That is all I am qualified to do. Either that or office/computer work, and I can’t be confined to that. I will inevitably kill myself. If I tell my mom this, she will just nag because she’s justifiably worried about me in the long run.
So I tell her about my plans for graduate studies in London instead, which is still the plan after 2-3 years of work. The plan originally was to bum around until December rolled along, then I’d hop on a plane to work in London for six months or so. But fate has a way of changing things and although I’m still planning to leave in December, the terms have changed. If I can find a decent job now, then I will consider staying here and see where that job will lead me. If I don’t find anything I like, I will go to London and become all cultured and stuff. What HASN’T changed is Southeast Asia road trip!! That WILL happen next year, hopefully.
I am searching in the entertainment industry for a good job, and I will spend the next six months searching for just the right position. It has to be good enough for me to give up London. In the meantime, I’ve struck a deal with my parents: they will pay my rent for July and August if I can get my real estate license by the end of July. Then I will spend August trying to sell our house in Diamond Bar. At the same time I will be studying for those pesky GRE’s before I lose all my collegiate knowledge. Oh, plus work part time in LA somewhere. That seems like the plan for the next 2 months… maybe I can stretch it to 3 hehe. We’ll see.
Last thing I want to address before I get back to my studying is the notion of friends. I don’t claim to be the best friend in the world, and I know I’m not because I’ve been neglecting a long list of people lately (yes, there is a list, I have it here somewhere), and I also agree that a good friend will be there for you through thick and thin, through mood swings and bipolar episodes, and through the happy, the mediocre, and the sad times, but I still draw the line at taking friends for granted. As a friend, when I say things, I try my best to say how I really feel even if it’s not what someone wants to hear. I don’t profess to be an expert or to know everything in the entire universe (though sometimes I do act this way, my apologies, I know the only person who ever gets to hold that title is a certain professor P), but I try. And I guess it’s not fair to be turned away when the only intention was a good one.
In other news, my brother is transferring to UCI and most likely trying out for Jodaiko (yay!). I hope he gets in. AND he found my car keys. Awesomeeeee!!
Wow that was a monster of a post, but it felt good to get everything down. I should write more often.
YAY MY YUKAI CLASS!!
why am I the only one that looks all weird?
